A Slow Revival
This past year, I’ve been writing, reading, editing, creating. Why haven’t I been publishing?
When I first launched on Substack, I imagined Inside / Out as a space to share my ideas and inquiry aloud; a place to check in with you as much as myself. But somehow, a year has passed and I haven’t posted anything here.
Behind the scenes, I’ve been writing, reading, editing, creating, meditating, ruminating. Why haven’t I been publishing? My horoscope told me I’ve been hiding. And, I know that I can be shy about writing. In public, at least. I wait to feel ready or to announce some big news, but that just turns into an excuse, a protracted one. In large part it’s self-inflicted pressure. The longer I’m silent, the louder my inner critic gets. What do I have to say that’s even worth sharing? But my interior life is full of questions. Thoughts scatter like cockroaches across my brain. I turn the lights on and they scamper away into the cracks and crevices of my consciousness, returning in the shroud of shadow and noise. As I try to grow, to be bold and more intentional, as a writer, I have to clean house, to revive my voice and confront myself. Again and again.
The goal is to post here at least once a month, so I hope you’ll bear with me and continue reading. Slowly, surely, I want to emerge from my cave of solitude and use my words to reconnect with you, to bring what’s inside out.
I am here for the slow revival!
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